I woke up not needing a cigarette. As I drink this pot of coffee though, I really really want one. I know it will pass though. No need to run to the store and ruin what I've started! It seems typing about wanting one helps too. I hope I can do it this time!
6:58 AM
A little antsy. Have to remember the breathing techniques I was told to use from when I tried to quit before. Deep breath in, blow it out like you're blowing out smoke. It helps mildly.
7:20 AM
I fear this is a hopeless path. I really want someone to confide in, but no one wants to quit with me. I have Cathy, but she's not a smoker. She doesn't understand the addiction. I WANT "You've gone 12 whole hours without a cigarette! You're doing great!" not "You've only went 12 hours, big deal."
7:45 AM: The Price
$2.94 a pack. About $3.13 a pack after tax. A pack a day habit, 30 days a month = $93.90 wasted. 31 days = $97.03 wasted. And that's just if I buy the cheapest the closest store has. Sometimes they are out and I buy a higher priced pack, or I buy from a different store at a different price. Rough estimate: $100 wasted a MONTH. $1,200 a year...
9:11 AM
My whole body feels numb. Is this a normal feeling for detoxification of nicotine and whatever else is in cigarettes?
9:53 AM
Feel a tad euphoric. Very nice. I wish it would stay like this, but I know it won't. Soon, I'm sure, comes the crash and crazy nicotine fits. I'll just enjoy this while it lasts.
10:18 AM
According to eHow (http://www.ehow.com/about_4675135_long-nicotine-stay-system_.html) I have about 30 days until all the nicotine has left my body. I can speed it up using water and exorcize!
10:46 AM
Seems I have no control over my balance. Odd. Didn't think I needed nicotine to walk straight...
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