It puts the butter on the bisquit or it doesn't get a triscuit!

 Update

I planned on updating daily. I normally don't get my wishes. I'm still happy I got my main wishes to come true:

• Cathy
• Thor
• Medicine

I love my wife and son more than anything. I owe the world to them. I almost didn't get my meds at all. Doctor gave me a prescription for 5mg of Zyprexa. Went to the pharmacy and they told me my insurance doesn't cover 5mg and that they called to get something else from my doctor. Well, she never got a message 3 or 4 hours later and I was PISSED! I didn't even get to talk to her at all after my appointment. When I went up the FIRST TIME they told me to come back at 1 because she would be getting out of her meeting then and I could talk to her. Came back at about 12:59 and they said something along the lines of "we're sorry, it seems she also has a procedure until 2:45. LUCKILY my genius wife found my sample packs I had from a while ago. And the pharmacy finally called and told me it was in. 5mg insurance wouldn't cover. 15mg on the other hand they will. Whatever. I have meds and I feel much better already!

The Random Babbling

My mind as of late seems to be switching back and forth between child & adult. Child being I only care for myself. Adult being I have sympathy for others. I had a nice medium ground last year. Learning of Cathy being pregnant was very exciting for me. I thought since  once a week. One night I was so drunk and mad that Cathy wouldn't listen to me that I yelled at her and punched a solid wood door.I drank so much that my sperm didn't work. I all but halted the drinking. I went from every day after 5 to every weekend after 5. Then Boxers fracture. Since then I've been a little weary of drinking too much. IF I drink once a week it's usually just 1 24oz can of Bud Light. I really wish I didn't have to take this medication. Or take this Creative Writing class. Or feel upset when I think about Cathy talking about money issues.  I hate feeling like it's all only my problem. I do like that next 6 weeks I get to learn Linux! I hope I do good in school as well as a husband and father. Cathy is always telling me or Thor how great I am. I wish I could feel like I really am that great. I put up a shield to people and tell them all how awesome I am. Really, it's just how awesome I wish I was. I don't like feeling as if I'm the lowest scum of the Earth. It's just how I portray myself.